June 2009
yesterday. i went to a barbeque with my new boyfriend zack. it was fun-ish. jst a little ackward cause i didn’t know anyone. once it was 725 we left . he was walking me home. and was saying things like:
“i just worry that you will leave me. and that i would die without you”
iin my mind at this time . i was just thinking it’s barely the 2nd day we have hung out what the...
it was weird yesterday.
when we were driving to my grandpas house.we drove by where my doggy died. i couldn’t help but wince. everytime i see a fast car pass me. i close my eyes and hold my breath. i dont know why. and i mnqge to fear for every dog, that is wwalking by the road. im even scared to cross the street. ive never miss someone so much. ever when its just a dog. but once we passed...
i can honestly say. i HATE yuma arizona.
there’s no one to trust but myself and that’s even hard to do. i can never trust anyone as a friend here. they always start or try to finish things. even try to get “revenge” as they call it? i mean serously why would to go and make it worse then it already is. ive been starting to push everyone away since the first week i got...
yesterday;
i made plans with nathan haha but yeah; we met at the mall. where me him and his friend anita walked to best buy. i owned him in guitar hero. [which he claimed he could beat me] then we went to starbucks. i got a vanilla frap, anita got a vanilla bean and idk what the fuck he got :D . we drank and listened to music from his phone. you wouldn’t beleive the weird faces we got . classic! while...
plans :D
well, i made plans to hang with nathan
im very bored. talk to me?
going through my head .
well, you know how im in tucson without my mom. ive been thinking. and to be honest. i dont really want to go back. i dont want to go back to the yelling and the blaming. the tears and the screaming. and the regret of ever beeing there. it pisses me off how im always the acrew up. im always the one blamed. anad im always the one that gets hurt in the end. i dont want to go back to yuma and be...
megan and sam
hum. i dont really have much to say. i miss my mom though surprise-ing-ly. just. there’s a bunch of drama. a guy i’ve been dating, well he’s cheating on me. and i can’t get a hold of him to break it off. uggh. he cheated on me with FIVE of my friends here. can you beleive that FIVE! i know that i dont trust easily but, i was wrong to trust them right? idont know that more...
“ when you love something you let it go right? ”
– good luck chuck xD
liars .
when you said “best friends” what were you really thinking? we never met, but we always talked about meeting one day. then you meet some of my japan friends and just leave me in the dust. once i started talking to you about how scared i am of losing you, you said and i quote ” alex, your my best friend and i wont let anything get in the way of our friendship of 2 years. your...
end of the year
it’s finally the end. it seems like 8th grade never happened.
my summer sucks.no one here can ever take a joke, and it’s just filled with so much drama. -sigh- huum. i wonder what sam, & megan are doing right now? so it’s what? almost 2am and i can’t sleep. stuck in tucson without my mom . dream huh? im totally dreading high school. without anyone to help me through...
was there ever sympathy for the dead?
i just dont get it . really.
once i leave japan everything seems to fall apart.
then once i get to leave arizona and go back. something bad happens here. am i seriously a magnet full for tragedy?
ever since she died, i have not been the same, now ever since i left sam.
i’ve been feeling homesick and alone.
