December 2009
currently suffering from a brokenheart, because some stupid sophmore is taking away my best friend
IMA KILL HIM
he lied to me, he used me and now i get back by pretending he doesn’t exist. <— steffen
she yells at me for stupid comments. i just say sorry. and now she’s pissed. so i just have to shake it off because that’s all i c an really do. im on the other side of the world. if she wanted to take her life, i can’t stop her… <— ayamarie jones
boy life sure...
i’m string out about all essof this sheeeeitt
so much for “forever & always”
i’ve been through more then you can ever imagine. people have walked in and out my life constantly and i never hear from them again i’ve had my heart broken, and have been treated like just an easy target, because i’m a hopeless romantic. i’ve been lied to and used like i was just a little piece of useless trash this is why i have such high walls, and only 3 people have...
did you know . i kinda want you to come back . like now because if you dont , ima die here in japan , alone . just like i imagined . but you dont want to die , anymore at least . you have a girlfriend . your really happy now . i miss the living crap out of you . i cant find the word . im out of words . i want to hear your voice . i miss you way to much . i want you to come back . the only person...
i’m in tucson, in less than 48 hours i see my dad.
i need to go christmas shopping. my nina and tio are gunna pitch in to get me a digital camera :]
MY CHRISTMAS LIST:
- camera
- braces off
- horizontial eyebrow piercing [x2]
- new ipod [cause mine broke]
- contacts
- money for an acoustic guitar <3
and my shopping list consists of:
- family
- jenna
- kevin
- steffen
-...
my sister and i are having a music battle.
im so owning her ass its sad :]]]
TOMORROW I SEE MAH DADDY :DDD
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my mom and i got into a fight.
it was stupid on what started it , but then she just started on how i hate everything.and that i should just stay with my dad the whole vakay.
i screamed i have soccer practice.
she yelled back that i don’t even like soccer.
it got quiet and i just popped.
i just blurted out that the only reason i go is so i don’t have to come home. she looked like...
school, music and friends./daddy
the only things that means alot :]
i haven’t had a decent amount of sleep this whole 2 weeks,
soccer and school its so hard to balance.
soccer is right after school, i get home about 745 to tired to do my homework, so i go to sleep around 11 trying to do some of it. then get up a 5 to shower, and get my mom and sister up. by 610 i start walking to Jenna’s house . where we get breakfast and wait for her to get dressed....
“we’ve drifted” is what she said to me . ive noticed, yet i don’t care.
the more time that passed with us not talking , i grew more sane, more empty.
now, when she asks me about things i use to feel, i lie. it’s horrible.
maybe because i no longer see her, and the only thing now is just distance and a sea of oceans that separate us.
i don’t care for anyone...
